[	mood	|	lazy	]
[	musik	|	bat for lashes - daniel	]

ahh im starting to love this song.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. I have to tell u that initially i thought it was kinda bull. I used to think that when that particular somebody is not around; u could feel a little less occupied, get more time of your own or something like that. But right now, due to the fact that i haven’t seen my boyfriend and friends for what seemed like ages, i am actually guilty of being a victim of that stupid quote.

I tried to do some sketches too but to no avail. My mind just keeps wandering off every ten seconds.

I need a backup plan, not that im on a mission or something like that, but being like a vegetable all day long is not giving me any justice. I should plan my days ahead; like what i should do or do things that should be done. Like my mom who is apparently a creature of habit. She wakes up at the same time, eats the same breakfast, exercises every evening at the same hour and stuffs like that. Very consistent and disciplined, in short.

And how can i ever be like that? Till i become a mother? Years to come i bet. But the eye bags are becoming friendlier to my eyes each day, i just have to do something about it.

Ive been planning to start playing with my keyboard again. I realized i can’t even remember when was the last time I laid my hands on it. See, apparently there are just a lot of things that i can actually do, it’s all just a matter of effort. With just a little of that so called ‘effort’, i bet i can finish a painting, play a song without notes, read a novel for whatever that matters!
Anything that could brush up my skills, then i should be gamed for it. Focus nora, focus. Results are coming out in a few days too. i should be scared out of my wits arent i?

First off, i need to sleep early so i can focus tomorrow. But it’s already half past midnight. Geez. :-/

To nyamuk, I hope u don’t drag yourself too deep; leave your problems for them to handle. Obviously they still love you.

Elya, your dad still loves you too, and like hell im so jealous with people with loving fathers.

Afifth, though we may not know each other that well yet, but im really sorry for your lost. Takziah. You’re one hell of a good friend.

I had a great weekend with you guys, with izny and min too. We should do it more often.  That great shishar place gives me orgasms.

To my dearest hadziq, happy 11 months my dear.